A man must be prepared to give 100% to his purpose, fulfill his karma or dissolve it, and then let go of that specific form of living. He must be capable of not knowing what to do with his life, entering a period of unknowingness and waiting for a vision or an new form of purpose to emerge. These cycles of strong specific action followed by periods of not knowing what the hell is going on are natural for a man who is shedding layers of karma in his relaxation into truth. ~David Deida
As you open yourself to living at your edge, your deepest purpose will slowly begin to make itself known. In the meantime, you will experience layer after layer of purposes, each one getting closer and closer to the fullness of your deepest purpose. It is as if your deepest purpose is at the center of your being, and it is surrounded by layers of concentric circles, each circle being a lesser purpose. Your life consists of penetrating each circle, from the outside toward the center.
The pursued of happiness is a waste of time. You are already happy! The being that you are can’t be reduced to a lesser form of joy or depression. Your identity, the ego, is what’s resisting the urge to be at ease with your being. This is why the discovery of your deepest purpose takes layers after layers of “cutting” towards the core of your being. As you dissolve each layer and move toward the center, you will more and more be living from your deeper purposes, and then your deepest heart purpose, whatever that is, in every moment.
Why can’t you be happy right now? Seriously what’s stopping you?
It’s easy to feel disappointed by life; success is never as fulfilling as you think it is going to be. But there is a good reason for this. successfully completing a lesser purpose doesn’t feel very good for very long, because it is simply a preparation for advancing toward a greater embodiment of your deepest purpose. Each purpose, each mission, is meant to be fully lived to the point where it becomes empty, boring and useless. Then it should be discarded. This is a sign of growth, bu you may mistake it for failure.
It is as if the universe is supporting you. You have no idea where a lesser purpose takes you, but it may feel right for the moment. So apply yourself fully into it. Give your gift 100%, without holding anything back.